Sigh
And again, u off to Miri. I’m getting bored with ‘Lonely’ girl every night.. maybe i shud get used to it but in a way, i feel so lonely with this.. i go to schl at 730-430pm. And u woke up at 12-1pm. And afternoon im busy w my life as a student. Going back home with a happy heart wana share you a story abt my life at schl, then u off to gym. I text you a hundreds words, u only reply, “im home. Aww.. i hope u’re fine. Be safe always. You know i love you” and in the moring i read ur text i was like.. “okay thats all (:” then, this life is keep on repeating 247.
Or maybe i was thinking, “rawi ngaleh kali sdh melayan.. tiap kali jumpa marah, kelahi” howwwwwwwwwww can i be inda marah cos anything that i do or i did u never know. U only know the “short story of me everyday” i donr have siapa2 to talk with. U said “dnt trust people” keep this inside me like 10000000000 stories, it is like 10000000000000000000000000000000 hurts!!
I do believe in, sabar saja.. sabar saja.. i did sabar sabar sabar.. think and kira how many hours or day(s) or minutes u spent ur time with me? Kdg2 dlm sehari, nda sampai 30 mins texting “okay.. ttyl” i know u love me. And i do love you. I know that yeah i know.. love is nothing if the happiness just a little mcm tahi hidung.. right? Right!!
I didnt mean to u spend ur time w me the whole fucking day, week, hours or anything shit.. i just, idk.. at least, ada.. i was mcm org gila mencari movies series kan di liat pasal i dnt wana thnk psl this loner life again n over and again!!! Kan jalan, takut, cannot jalan sorg2. Im stuck!!! I dnt knw what to do. I dnt wana gve up on this, i keep on trying and trying man.. seriously!! Everytime kan jalan ur face look so tired, sleepy and masa atu mcm terhad bah.. liat kan pukul 4pm, need to go, i dnt wnt you to be late ke gym.. sunday? Sunday rest day. Saturday? There’s no saturday or saturday night for me again..
-25 April
